Close to the surface......

Just had a lovely time with Martin (son) and Tambi and the kids. We went for a long walk, and the kids rode their bikes.
That's such a nice part of living where we do. We have lots of bike paths and places for the little ones to ride safely.
Then we had taco's and 'stuff' for dinner together.
Tambi had made a chocolate cake and I had made a whipped sort of dessert - all very yummy.
McKenzie (2.5yrs) was so funny. She had eaten plenty and there she was with this chocolate cake sitting right in front of her.
She lowered her head and stuck out her tongue and took a huge 'lick' from the icing of the cake.
It was sooooo funny. Except that her daddy growled at her and made her cry.
She was sooo cute. Tears and chocolate cake all over her face.
What a sweetie.
Just had a lovely email from Wendy who has been so supportive and a good friend to me through tuff times.
She has also experienced some of the same tuff things in her bid to support me and express her own feelings.
Sometimes you just wonder how things get to where they do.
Going over past stuff just brings all that horrible emotion back. It's still so close to the surface.
Just a wrong choice here, or there and you're somewhere where you never intended to go.
And lots of times I still have a big question. What did I do, exactly. Because I've never had it explained to me.
Oh well.......some questions are just going to remain a mystery....and life will continue on without the answers.
Time to go and watch some TV, relax and get my head straightened out again.

This week has been unremarkable, except that I had another birthday.
Doesn't seem so long ago since the last one!!!!!!!!!
I was very spoiled both by family and very unexpectedly by my new employers.
It's nice to feel accepted and that I fit in at my new job. I am meeting some really interesting people as they come in for treatment. Some people have such difficult lives and it makes me so aware that I am truelly blessed.
I worked extra hours this week as Narelle had some days off. So today, my day off I had a big nanna-nap.
I did work on a double birthday layout for a while but the desire and need for a sleep overcame the desire to scrapbook.
On Monday I go and see the neck surgeon/specialist about the big lymphnode lump that is still very evident in my neck.
I'm a bit nervous as I don't do well with the thought of surgery. I'm also still nervous with thoughts at the back of my mind asking questions as to why this lymphnode is still so enlarged and what is it reacting to. Even though biopsy tests indicate nothing sinister - I am looking forward to hearing what this specialist has to say about it.
Another busy weekend with Martin and Tambi and the kids coming over for dinner and an early bike-ride before eating.
Sunday is family dinner and I am making dessert.
I decided to look through these little Womens Weekly Menu Planner books I have owned for about 20yrs now.
They brought back memories of many meals we've had way before our kids were grown up. So for the first time in many years I have made a meal plan for the coming week. Something I used to do every week. Takes the guess work out of what to eat each day, and what to buy each week.
So, for dessert tomorrow night (after we eat taco's) I am going to make Flummery. My kids loved it - so now I'm going to introduce the grand-kids to it.
Think I'll be in the kitchen a bit more than usual tomorrow.

Enjoying the moment........

Again another busy week and weekend has passed.

Busy with working, busy with family, busy scrapbooking.

I have had a lovely weekend. My weekend always starts on a Friday which is lots of fun. I met Sarah (youngest daughter) at Southland and we shopped and browsed and enjoyed spending some rare time together.

Saturday was Monty's birthday party. Which was all go from the start. It was at Springers and they organise kids parties there. A lovely young man helped the kids play basketball games, soccer games and t-ball. It was heaps of fun for them all.

I am glad there isn't a party this week!!! Although, I could organise one, seeing as how it's my birthday next monday. But.....I think I'll pass on that idea.

The weekends seem to be more exhausting than the working week at the moment. I'm looking forward to maybe going to see a movie or something next weekend.

I think I've missed all the movies that I had wanted to see. Although The Kingdom looks good because I am a Jennifer Garner fan. Ex Alias etc.

I had some real relaxing fun doing a few scrapbook pages. Some new ones to put in the frames I have hanging all around my home.

One of Sahnie at her birthday party and one of India at Sahns party.

They are scraplifted, but I have no idea where from.

Sometimes I just browse around all different sites and print off layouts I like. Then later I forget where I got them from.

So, if they look familiar and you think they may be yours..........please know that I enjoyed copying them and am really happy with the results.

I am really enjoying being able to scrapbook however I want. After so many years of preparing classes and needing to think differently about planning layouts it's nice and relaxing to work with my photos in whatever way I feel at the time. Which often means just copying a basic design I like and then adding my own touch.

After a 10.5hr day it's time to relax and watch a bit of TV. I'm always glad when Monday is behind me because that's my longest day every week.

I got a nice complement at work today. I'm now part of the furniture. Although I know I am on a 3month trial it's nice to know that I am fitting in and doing the job well.

Pretty 2yr old

This is my beautiful little grandaughter Sahn at her 2nd birthday party. She wasn't too fussed about a lot of the games but she sure did love the chalk drawing on the balcony.
Sahnie I love your hair in the two little pig tails. You are such an adorable and cute little girl.
Despite the fact that you have some development delays you are changing all the time.
I see you expressing yourself differently and just getting a grasp on things at a much faster rate than you used to.
You love to keep up with the older kids and that's great because you learn to copy what they do. Even the naughtie stuff!!
Our third birthday party in a row this week - it was such a beautiful day that the children could play all the games outside.
they particularly loved the game of tying balloons to your ankles and whilst attempting to protect your own try to pop some one else's.
Andrea made a gorgeos cake for Sahnie. Really pretty. Pink and bows and flowers etc. Nice to see after having so many 'boys' birthday cakes around. I even got some scrapbooking done this weekend. A layout of Isaacs birthday and nearly finished one of India's birthday. Just ran out of time. At work today all the staff got their specially scanned for, orthotics. Pretty special working at a place where you get something worth about $300 for nothing. Especially when I've only been there for 6 weeks.
And mine are really comfortable too.
Off to Medicare today to claim some of those 'big' pathology/radiology bills. And then buy some new photopaper. I bought a pack of 50 last week and used them all!!! Mainly printing photos for the family. Because I usually am the only person taking photos I thought I'd share a few.
Time to go and dry my hair - it's drying by itself at the moment and that's not going to be a good look.

Just had to come back for a minute

I keep forgetting I wanted to post a couple of photos on my blog from Friday of last week.

Our weather has been really nice, but Friday last week we had this huge hail storm.

One of those ones that comes with furious wind and last about 10mts max.

I had to rush out and take some photos of course, because I could see a layout happening right before my eyes.

The funny thing was our little kittens. We opened the family room door, and called them. Both of them kept running up to us, but then kept running straight back into the garden and getting drenched. The poor little things didn't know what to do. The sound on the patio roof was so loud that they were just scared out of their wits.

When I did get them in I had to wrap them both up in towels to dry them off.

Fortunately they both recovered well from their exciting afternoon.

It's All Good........... nearly!

I have been sweating the results of two biopsies I had done on Tuesday. One on a huge lymph node in my neck and the other on a growth on my thyroid.
Well today Dr.Nick gave me the good news that neither have any cancer. Whoopee!!!!!!! Even though I felt confident that things would be OK, there was always a little niggling doubt in the back of my mind.
I still have to go and see a throat surgeon because he may want to do surgery on the lymph node, and maybe on the thyroid. Will wait and see what he says. I hope he doesn't want to do anything. That would suit me a lot more.
I have just printed out about 60+ photos. Some to give to family members and others for me to scrapbook. I think I spend more time organising myself to scrapbook, than actually scrapbooking.
The photos are all of recent birthday parties held for little grandchildren.
India's 'princess castle' book was such a hit, I had to make one for Sahn. Hers I made out of Basic Grey papers as well but I used the Lilly and Kate ones.
It's Sahns 2nd birthday party today!!!!
Got home from a late evening out with some girlfriends, on Thursday night, to find a huge parcel! I hadn't ordered anything, and I didn't think passports (which was the only thing I was expecting!) came in such a huge parcel.
It was from Express Publications and I had won a prize for a competition I entered months ago.
Yeah!!! I havn't won anything, ever. So this was fun.
Unwrapping it was a challenge in itself. However when I got to the goods I have 2 large albums, 1 6x6" album. Refills for all of them. A tote for lots of bits and pieces. Embellishments, craft mats and more.
Pretty lucky girl.
So, this week has been a great week. I worked about 25hrs again. I am feeling really comfortable at my new place of work. Everyone there is pretty easy going and there is always someone setting someone else up so we all get a laugh.
I worked two nights by myself and did allright so I now work my permanent 29hrs per week and that's great. Now I can get some routine and things worked out with meals etc. It's a bit harder when I get home after 7:30pm two nights and after 6pm two nights. But, I get a 3 day weekend every week. Loving that!
I'm off to organise a birthday layout. Then off to another birthday party. Sahn's 2nd birthday. It's going to be crazy. Lots of big people, lots of little people and not a whole lot of room. Should be fun though...................!!

Busy,Busy Saturday

I started off Saturday very early, for me that is!
Daniel and his family and Colin & I were assigned to clean our chapel today. What? On Grand Final Day? Not only Grand Final day but also India's birthday party!
So, we were up and at the Chapel for 7:30am. We cleaned toilets, and vacuumed, washed windows and dusted. By 9am we were done! Everything smelt nice and clean and looked good. It was actually a priviledge to have helped to fulfill that assignment. It felt good!
Home for a quick shower etc., and off to McDonalds Karingal for India's party. Weren't we only there two weeks ago? Yep, but that was for Isaacs party.
India turned 5 and she had her friends from Kinder and her cousins of course. Took some cute photos. But not too many this time. Usually I take way too many and never print them all, or scrapbook them all.
After the party we went back to Mart and Tambi's for a little while to check out Indias presents. She got so many Bratz dolls and pretty girly stuff. I made her the Princess Castle book which is a kit class put out by Aussie Scrap Source. I made it out of Basic Grey Pheobe paper and looked just gorgeous. She loves it and it's already on display in her room.
Then it was off to Andrea's house to watch the footie game.
The game wasn't much - a bit blow-out. But the outcome was great. Not that I am a Geelong supporter, but you couldn't deny them the idea of winning a Grand Final after 44yrs.
Dan and Carolina came over as well, with the kids. Then Mart, Tambi and the kids came over and we had fish and chips and pizza for dinner.
Now after a day of Maccas, pizza and chips I feel disgusting!!!!!!!!!!!
Not the best thing for the waist line. Actually, what waist line?? I can't even find mine.
Work has been great this week. I worked about 25.5hrs. Still learning, but getting more confident. I worked by myself again on Wednesday night. And monday night is my first 'big night' on my own. I think I'll be OK. Maybe.
So, I went to get my UltraSound results from Dr.Nic. It turns out the big lump in my neck is a lymph node which sits right next to my thyroid. On my thyroid is a growth of some sort and the lymph node is not happy about it and is reacting to it.
Now I'm not getting jumpy just yet. Although I have been looking on the internet.........just to scare myself.
Nic tried to get me in to see one of his 'throat men' but both are on holidays. Of course! And he himself is on holidays this week!!!! Great medical care! Actually he is sending me off for a needle biopsy. Yikes!!!!! Just the thought of that is frightening enough let alone that the fact a biopsy is only done to check out if the 'thing' is cancer or not.
But, I'm trying not to think along those lines. Just taking one step at a time.
So, the next step is this needle biopsy which I get done on Tuesday morning. I hope it doesn't hurt...........!!!!
I have an appointment with Nic on Saturday morning to get those results. Not thinking that far ahead either.
Because, next Saturday is Sahns birthday party. She will be 2yrs old. I can't believe how fast time goes.
The following Saturday is Lamonts birthday and he will be 8.
The Saturday after that is pretty much my birthday.....but we wont' go there.
Gonna do some ironing and then watch The Bill. Love that show!

A Nervous Wait

Yesterday I discovered a very large lump on the side of my neck. Yikes! Was my first reaction and then got all nervous and worried. I hadn't had an accident or bumped my neck. I had been a bit sick with a cold, fever and sinus stuff - so maybe it's just nothing.
Of course all the crap I've had to deal with over the past couple of months would not help to have a non-stressed and healthy body. All that stress isn't good for anyone.
Went to my friend Dr.Nic and he didn't know what it is so sent me off for an ultrasound today. After having three people prod and push around my neck for 45mts I still don't know what it is.
The last person to play with the ultrasound was the Doctor and he thinks it's an enlarged gland. About 3.9cm which is huge!! But doesn't know why and what it's consisting of.
'Do I have to worry?' I asked him. 'Well maybe yes, or maybe no. I can't say without further tests.'he said.
So what further tests? Maybe a CT scan and/or a needle biopsy.
Now I'm really worried. And, why can't they do all that today so I don't have to wait and get all anxious in the meantime.
Don't they know I need answers today?????
OK, I have decided I am not going to get stressed and worried unless I have to. I don't believe it's anything sinister because it just appeared so quickly.
For now, that's my position. And if I start to think differently I will need to just get myself back on track.
Otherwise I could be using up so many emotions and that would be exhausting and it might all be for nothing.
So here's to a positive mind set while I wait, and wait, and wait.

Little Cats

this is Bizkit

And this is Balou.

Hey Ange - meet the cats!!!

Balou is a very quiet, loving and gentle kitten. Bizkit is crazy!!! She never sits still. In fact I've had to get the water spray out on her a couple of times. She is very funny. Last night she jumped into the bath - not realising that it had lots of water in it!!! She literally walked on water to get out it was the funniest thing to see. Shame I didn't have a movie camera on hand at the time.

Balou likes nothing better than to snuggle up and lick me on my face. Of course I don't want to be licked on my face so it's a constant battle to stop her. I move her away, I cover my face and she pushes her nose in trying to get to me. She is very persistent.

They both love the computer and like to help me type whatever I'm trying to do. They also love to try and catch the curser.

I love cats and have usually always had one. But after Dribble (yep! He was named after the basketball term, dribbling) was gone we never got another cat.

It's nice to have them around.

Pal Dog Food

Karen, I had to laugh at your memories of my 'dog food' blogs. Seems like an eternity away. I don't buy dog food anymore, cuz we had our old dog Mari euthenased about 10weeks ago. That was a pretty sad time because she was nearly 15yrs old!
However, now I look for Whiskars instead. Yep, I came home with not one but two kittens. They are sisters and I couldn't take one and leave the other one there by herself.
So, if you notice if Whiskars is on special anywhere let me know.
Yep, it is good that things are now going a lot better. No-one escapes the hard and difficult times that pop up here and there in our lives.
Just feels great when you come out the other side and you're still in one piece and can keep smiling.
Thanks for your comments - and I am much more diligent about keeping my blog up to date. So you don't have to tell me off anymore!

Everythings Good!

Had another great week. Didn't work as many hours, but the week flew by just as fast. Don't really know what I did with all that time!
I've decided I am going to sort all my scrapbooking albums. I really only have Heritage ,Puffing Billy and Christmas as individual ones at the moment. I think I might try to organise them chronologically. It's going to be a massive undertaking but I think it will be worth it. At the moment when I am trying to find a particular layout I have to look through 15 albums and try to guess where it might be.
Had lunch with two lovely friends, Rosemary and Robyn, today. Hayley also popped in and said 'Hi'. I am so happy that we stay in touch and keep our friendships alive and well. I don't see them as much as I used to because I don't work where I used to and that's where I used to catch up all the time. Now, we catch up about once a month and it means a lot to me that they like to stay in touch too.
Heading off to Daniel and Carolina's for dinner tonight. Get to sit on their new couches. Brown leather, is all I know about them. I offered to make dessert and Carolina asked me to make mini pavs. Which isn't really mini pavs because I break up the pavolova shells and it looks just like a big pav.
Can't wait to see Josh,Riley and Harrison as well.
Also can't wait for the weather to get a bit milder and then we can all hang out more at parks etc. Lots of photo ops!!!
I got quite sick this week. Think it started off as hayfever but quickly developed into a burning throat, and the next day my voice was gone and so were my sinus'. I had the aches and shivers etc. I still went to work yesterday, feeling like crap. And got some 'treatment' and some homeopathic drops and tablets and by today I am feeling a whole lot better. That was so lucky cuz I think I was going to be in for a big bout of flu.
It's great that I can use good stuff to get rid of the bad stuff, instead of anti-biotics. So far, so good!!!
Off to dinner!

Really Lovin' It

I have now worked two full weeks at my new job and am just 'lovin it. I'm working anywhere between 20-30hrs each week but I always get Fridays off. When I stop being trained my hours will be set which is good cuz then i can get into a routine and organise myself a bit better.
I'm finding it fun, challenging and meeting really nice people. Which is what I enjoy doing.
I'm also excited because the other day I came home and there were 3xpizza boxes waiting for me. No, not with pizza's - Scrapbook Stuff of course!
I had placed an order with Blue Bazaar, one with The Scrapheap and one with 2Peas and they all came on the same day!
I got the new, new Elsie Stuff - not much of the paper because they were out of stock, but the buttons etc are great. Love the colours.
Got some 'boy' papers from both the other stores.
It was fun. I sat on the bed and opened each one as if it was Christmas.
Now I just have to fit in Scrapbooking in my schedule. Which I am sure I can manage.
Although at the moment I am hooked on the old TV show 'Felicity'. My girls have bought the 4xseries on DVD and I've only just started on the first one. Sitting there watching 4 episodes at a time - is just the best way to relax. Only means I stay up way too late and I don't scrapbook.
Just got home from work and now I need to eat dinner. Thankfully I made enough last night to cover tonight.

All charged up

Had a great weekend. Went to Isaac's 7th birthday and had so much fun with all the littlies. He was very very spoiled with his presents. Lucky little boy!
Andrea and the kids and Dan & Carolina and the kids all came over and we went for a bike ride. I got my bike out too!!! That's a bit amazing in itself. Colin and I had been on a bike ride the day before, out for about 45mts and I was sore and stiff after that effort.
I thought riding along with the kids would be the best fun, which it was. For a little while, but then my handlebars worked themselves loose, and were going in all directions. So I got a bit scared to ride it. Darn!! It was so much easier riding than walking.
We were all out for about 2hrs and then came home, made dinner together and enjoyed some yummy pasta and salad.
I've had an amazing weekend really. I am feeling a peace I havn't felt in a long time and it's comforting and feels good.
I so love time with my family and friends and just relaxing and enjoying each moment.
Now I am ready to start another week at my new job.
It's an great place to work and the people there are all focused on such positive things.
Just love it!

Sweet Kristy

Today i went to the funeral of my dear, sweet friend Kristy.

There were so many people there and everyone wore something pink. Pink because it is her favourite colour and pink for breast cancer.

Even the men wore pink ties with their suits. It was such a special and beautiful touch, and united everyone in their purpose of being there for Kristy and for Luke. The spirit of love and kindness and peace was breathtaking.

Kristy's coffin was the softest, softest pink - almost white and the flowers were all shades of pink and white.

I feel so blessed to have been there, to have felt the spirit of her love and her testimony in every word that was said about her. Luke read out a letter, to Kristy. There wasn't a dry eye there it was so emotional and moving.

It is so special to know that she has only just moved on, that our time here on earth is so short compared to eternity. And how important it is to get priorities right and focus on those things that are eternal.

God bless you sweet girl.

Those 'Sometimes Moments'

I've had a few of those 'sometimes in life' moments over the past few days.
Good things, great things, sad things and unpleasant things. And each of them or their own become something to learn from but when they all come together it can be pretty overwhelming.
Loosing Kristy this week has been an enormous challenge. I'm so glad that her own faith has been such an example to those she has left behind. Giving everyone strength to understand that God Does Work in Mysterious Ways and that when we can't make sense of why things happen in it is our faith and the faith of others that helps so much.
I have really enjoyed starting my new job. I have worked 3 days now and will work again tomorrow. It's nice to be in an environment where you just quietly do your work and people come and go. The professionals there are just that - very professional. It's nice to work in a place where the management have things in control in a pleasant and kind way.
Unpleasant things have come my way too. It seems that sometimes in life you really get hit over the head with who your 'real' and genuine friends are.
That's a pretty overwhelming confrontation.
So, I must say that at the moment it has been quite hurtful but also I realise that being away from an environment that creates such vibes is the best thing that can happen to me.
Resigning from S has now become one of the best ideas I ever had. At the time I had a lot of remorse about my decision. But as things have unfolded over the past month and a bit there has been a huge revelation of where I need to focus now.
At first I really missed the contact with customers and friends, and of course buying scrapbooking products as soon as they arrived in the shop. I longed for being able to go to crops and classes.
Now, I realise that there are so many more important things to direct my energy. I will love scrapbooking for myself and record my own life and that of my family for my family and me to enjoy.
But now I realise that neglecting my family and good friends to work and associate with people at S, was not worth it. I found that there was a huge degree of selfishness amongst some of the scrapbookers - it's all about ME! And I got into that kind of thinking too. Now that I am away from it, I realise how wrong that is for trying to balance my life.
My life was totally out of balance, and fortunately I am now finding it again.
So it's been another week of learning and awareness and generally realising that I am no longer at a cross-road. I have taken a new path and it will lead to better and happier things for me and my family.

Farewell to a sweet Friend

This morning I heard that a lovely young friend of mine has passed away. Kristie battled breast cancer two years ago. She was cleared of cancer and began to resume her young life, marrying Luke 18months ago. She has always been the sweetest and loveliest girl. Easy to talk with and always caring about someone else.

The past few weeks she has become ill with something very painful. She was back seeing her oncologist. The story most of us were told was that she had some broken ribs after a car accident.

Through Church we started helping them with a meal for their dinner each night. When it was my turn we chatted for about 1/2hr and she told me what she was experiencing, but now in hindsight, I can see how much she left out. Some of what she said, didn't make sense either and of course now I realise why.

Last Sunday I briefly saw her at Church and she looked so frail and so frightened. My heart went out to her. She was gone before I got to give her a hug.

During the week she was put in to hospital and she developed blood clots in the lungs. This morning she passed away.

A tragic end to a beautiful young life.

Now is the time to remember my faith and my beliefs. I know that she has gone to a place of peace and a place of rest. I know that she is now free from pain and that she has further things to accomplish in her journey.

For Luke, it is so different. Poor boy! My heart goes out to him as do my prayers.

So, to you Kristie - until we meet again!!

A Brand New Start

I am excited!!!! I have a new job!
I have been going for so many interviews which has been a great experience. A bit scary too!! I am actually amazed at how many places need staff and especially mature staff. I do come under that catergory.
The job that's been offered is at a Chiropractic Clinic at the front desk. Something I have wanted to do for a long time. Medical Receptionist. I was going to do a course at Frankston Hospital, but on the job training is much better.
So, today i work a couple of hours, next week about 15hrs and then it will increase.
I think I can cope with the more hours per week, because I don't have to worry about preparing classes or thinking about classes etc.
Although working in the Scrapbook industry has been an amazing experience. It has given me confidence dealing with people and lots of other skills. Now, I can really scrapbook just for myself and for gifts etc.
So, where the one door has closed there is definetly a new one opened. Again, I feel very blessed.

Lots of fun

What a great weekend. The weather has been really mild and encouraged lots of outdoor time. Saturday afternoon we spent with Andrea, Blake, Orson and Sahn coming over for a bike ride and a walk. It was so relaxing and fun to be with the kids and Andrea. Orson fell off his bike so many times, and I had to take a photo of his 'sore-sore' everytime he stopped. Sahnie isn't happy to sit in the pram and be pushed along. She has to walk and walk she did. We were out for over an hour and she walked the whole time.

Blake is very proud of himself because he can ride a two wheeler without training wheels. Except when he is going really slow and then he gets the wobbles.

We all had home made pizza for dinner and then Monty came over cuz he was sleeping the night so we thought we'd better have Blake sleep the night too. Now that's a challenge!!!

Some chemical reaction is set off when those two grandsons are together! They are sooooo naughty, and they know it!

It was with some relief when Sara picked up Monty this morning, and we had only Blakey to entertain.

We took him for a long walk to feed the ducks. He loved it. Chattering the whole way, asking lots of questions. He really loves some one on one time.

We went to Church together and he was the best behaved boy.

Tonight we dropped Blakey home and then went to Martin and Tambi's for dinner. Three more gorgeous grandchildren to spend time with. And they were all in the funniest moods, keeping us laughing all the time.

How blessed I am. I have such a wonderful and close family. Four great children and ten fantastic grandchildren.

Friday I went for a job interview. Yikes!!! Actually I wasn't nervous at all. That may be a bad sign! It would be nice to get the job, but if not, that's OK too.

I learned something over the past few days. There has been the biggest fuss made in the US about a very big disagreement between Stacey Julian and Heidi Swapp. Unfortunately, Stacey Julian made a big boo-boo by writing an email with some non nice comments, and mistakingly sending it to everyone in her address book. Which included a lot of people. So, it all blew up. the 2peas forum has quite a discussion on it. Everyone with their own judgments etc. So, I decided to go to Stacey's blog and check out a bit more.

She had written a big apology and expressed a lot of remorse at the situation she had created. I was really impressed with her humility. She then wrote about the fact that humility was something she had been trying to work on, and here she was in this horrible situation. And, for her all she could do was say what she was feeling. Regret and admitting her mistake.

I feel a lot like her too. I made some mistakes a few weeks ago, with emails. I regret them too. And I am trying really hard to make amends as much as I can. I can't be responsible for how other people respond to me. All I can do is be sincere. And try to do better.

So, this weekend I have had fun, and I have learned some good principles.

Can't get it much better than that!!!!

The Best News

Yesterday my little grandaughter Sahn had to go back to the ear specialist after having had surgery for grommets and having her adenoids out. Prior to this operation her hearing was less than 50%.

Now, she is within the normal range. How fantastic is that!!!! I am so excited for her. She has been so different since this operation. Much more confident and I believe that her speech will develop really fast now. She is such a sweet and cute and now very cheeky little one.

Here she is last easter - happy but not walking or talking. Now she runs! And now she can hear! What a blessing!